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So, I'm not sure there's another place I can really post this, so I'm going to post it here.
As I've been starting up playing again, I'm noticing a very significant issue that I'm starting to wonder if I need to address before I can really fix some of my mechanical problems.
When I don't play things I'm comfortable with (unless I'm playing whatever it is as a support, in which case I just run on autopilot), I tend to start to panic in most combats. It's most noticeable and severe in one on one combats, but it pretty much happens in all of them to some degree.
When I say panic, I don't mean a panic attack. This does involve physical and mental side effects, but they tend to subside once the combat ends. My heart rate increases and I can hear it pounding in my ear, I shake, my decision-making is definitely worse, and I feel something akin to actual fear.
Does anyone have any idea how to start dealing with this? I'm kinda to the point where I'm starting to think this is a sign I should just actually quit, I guess.
As I've been starting up playing again, I'm noticing a very significant issue that I'm starting to wonder if I need to address before I can really fix some of my mechanical problems.
When I don't play things I'm comfortable with (unless I'm playing whatever it is as a support, in which case I just run on autopilot), I tend to start to panic in most combats. It's most noticeable and severe in one on one combats, but it pretty much happens in all of them to some degree.
When I say panic, I don't mean a panic attack. This does involve physical and mental side effects, but they tend to subside once the combat ends. My heart rate increases and I can hear it pounding in my ear, I shake, my decision-making is definitely worse, and I feel something akin to actual fear.
Does anyone have any idea how to start dealing with this? I'm kinda to the point where I'm starting to think this is a sign I should just actually quit, I guess.
I suspect that the issues come from outside the game and probably won't be solved until you solve them outside the game, which is what your blog is really asking, whether it's outside the game or just game-related.
Sadly, none of us are really qualified to help you solve it outside the game and when it comes to in-game, the best we can offer you is to keep in mind that even if everything goes to hell in a teamfight, it's still just a video game and has no repercussions in real life. Even if you walk into a teamfight and then take your hands off the keyboard and mouse, the world won't end. Maybe someone in-game in-chat with you can help reassure you that it's alright and remind you that the outcome of the game just doesn't matter beyond the scope of the game.
Just an outlying suggestion, but maybe you need to try a yolo-champion that loves to dive the enemy every chance they get. Pick something like
I figured as much, yea.
It's worth noting that I've been playing this game for five years now and this is a relatively new issue by comparison (having really only become a problem in the last year and a half or so, when I started really pushing myself to improve and started having way more anxiety about the game, in general), so it seems unlikely that time will magically fix it.
unrelated, but I do actually play
It might actually help to build an ego for yourself, who's going to knock you down if you're simply the greatest. Not caring for what others think of what you do and only looking out for yourself might give you enough false confidence to make an instant decision.
Yes, I said false confidence.
Sadly, none of us are really qualified to help you solve it outside the game and when it comes to in-game, the best we can offer you is to keep in mind that even if everything goes to hell in a teamfight, it's still just a video game and has no repercussions in real life. Even if you walk into a teamfight and then take your hands off the keyboard and mouse, the world won't end. Maybe someone in-game in-chat with you can help reassure you that it's alright and remind you that the outcome of the game just doesn't matter beyond the scope of the game.
Just an outlying suggestion, but maybe you need to try a yolo-champion that loves to dive the enemy every chance they get. Pick something like
@general topic I'm just really uncomfortable with this whole thing because it really just makes me feel like I might actually have a panic attack until it subsides, which is obviously unpleasant. It makes it difficult to deal with any of the mechanical problems I have, since it's pretty rare that I get a lane where I can actually just work at that while also not being forced to deal with allies who decide to gank my lane for me by diving or some such random ******** that doesn't actually help. I'm sorta fine when I pick champions I'm fairly used to playing, but almost none of those are any good in a solo lane, so I kinda have to improvise sometimes and that really doesn't help.
The anxiety won't go away, and if you're really that uncomfortable about it don't feel bad for leaving the game. It's a game after all, there's no point if you'll feel bad while playing it.
Imo the panic part is part of the fun. Doing something that is extremely risky and either JUST failed or JUST succeeded at doing it makes my heart raise. It is exciting and fun to me. It is why I tend to play odd balls when I do play and why I usually tend to do more risky stuff in game.
If you ask me, the best way to solve this is either by changing the mindset or by doing the exact opposite of what I do (sticking to the same champs/roles or playing more passive).
Obviously another solution is playing who can avoid fighting, like Ez and other safe champs. For me solving a problem is simply taking it head on the best option.
I know that this is prohably about as helpful as telling someone looking for advice on climbing elo not to loose, but this is all I have(I can expand on the mindset stuff a bit, but I feel like it is the hardest option).
Otherwise I'd say keep playing (if you want to) because issues should like that should go away over time.
Find out what makes you enjoy League. For me, it's the competition, it's the strategic element. For others it's just trying goofy things and enjoying them, regardless whether it's successful or not. Then, just do that! League is about fun and shouldn't make you stress out. If you're struggling with anxiety issues, you may just need to take a step back and try to only play things you enjoy or make you relax.