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every time i play league I seem to always be the one to get picked on no matter if i am playing with friends or not, people always call me a guy because of my name and i am sick of it... i am not a guy i put this stupid name to let people know i am a girl but apparently people ruined that too so now i am just... screwed and i am always picked on.... just me always me my friends don't help me no one helps me i am forced to fend for myself each time and now i feel more alone then i have ever felt in my life, i've finally gotten friends for once and they just disappeared like i don't exist again and it hurts, really hurts so now i don't even have friends to witness people hating on me and as always i will just be alone, like i should of been in the first place because i am apparently not allowed to have friends
If you're ever looking for more online outlets, let me know. There are plenty of less toxic communities online than League. If you want any recommendations, feel free to ask.
People on MOBAfire are always very welcoming to newcomers, though, so it's curious that you chose to post just now, after joining so many months ago! It's a good place to just meet new people to chat with, exchange and discuss builds and ideas, and you sure seem to have a lot of those up your sleeve!
Enjoy your stay! Cheers! =)
Just let go of it girlll cmoon everyone's not born good at certain games. The only way u can get good is by practise. And who cares if ppl criticize you?? just mute them and continue practising!
As for your real life friends maybe its time to get some new ones. I suggest looking for people who u think might be going through similar problems like yours because they'll understand much better and u both can bond even faster.
I also would LOVE to play with someone like you but unfortunately im in the EUNE server. HMU tho if u ever make an account on that server!
I also agree about trying out some other games, I play league often but I also play RPGs and story-games more often than not because they're far more relaxing.
I'm not on OCE otherwise I'd love to play with you, but if you play on NA as well (some OCE players do?) then lmk and I'll add you there :)
From the sounds of it though, it's more of the community / your friends group that's the problem. Unfortunately it's pretty common on the internet to assume everyone is male until proven otherwise. I guessed that you were female based on the name, but I can definitely understand some people not making that assumption. I don't really have a solution for this as it can happen any time you meet someone new online, even if your name is super "girly". Maybe playing in more premades with people you know would help this issue since you'd have to deal with strangers less.
I don't know your friends or what they're like, but based on the small bit of information here, it sounds like you might need to find some new friends. Playful ribbing is pretty common (especially with guys) and sometimes those jokes can become hurtful, but if it's a constant pattern then you might have to stand up for yourself or just cut some people off. People who genuinely belittle you or constantly tease you after you've asked them to stop are not your friends.
I feel like I ended up writing a lot of advice even though I don't really know you or your situation, so take everything I've said with a grain of salt. I just wanted to write something since it seemed like you could use someone to talk to. Unfortunately we're on different servers (and different hemispheres) so I can't really offer to play games with you, but if you ever want to talk about something just shoot me a PM on Discord. You can find me pretty easily through the MOBAFire Discord server.
Hope you're feeling better soon.
It's often good to vent your thoughts and feelings, even if it is to complete strangers. You never know who might be able to relate, or who is willing to listen. Sometimes just talking about what's wrong or what happened can be a very positive thing and even somewhat therapeutic.
Trust me, I've been there and done it a lot in the last 2 years. Sometimes you just need to get it out of your system :)
If you enjoy the gameplay and don't have much interest in social interaction in game, you could try preemptively muting people. I usually mute randoms if I'm not in a good mood and criticism of my play would set me off. Lots of League players are really critical of their teammates to the point of useless flaming so it helps me to mute if I'm not in a mental state that's stable enough to stand that.
I've been playing League a long time (since season 1) and I still have days (or weeks) where I feel like I'm terrible at the game and can't do anything right or have no control over the outcome of each game. I think we tend to lose sight of our own skill level and undervalue what we've learned when we're exposed to better players. For example, I'm by no means bad at the game, but if I lose 5 games in a row I'll probably feel like I don't know how to play anymore, even if that isn't true. The opposite can happen too, where if I win like 7 games in a row I'll feel like I'm really good at the game.
One thing that helps me keep things in perspective is thinking about really high level players. You have players like Faker, who's arguably the best player in the world (if not #1, then definitely among the best), who will have visibly terrible games even in solo queue. There was a season where C9 Balls was struggling to get past Diamond 2 when playing Korean solo queue before Worlds. Faker or Bjergsen or Crown going 0-7 in a game doesn't make them a bad player and the same thing goes for you and me.
I haven't seen you play so I can't really directly comment on your skill level, but I guarantee you're at least competent at some aspects of the game that other players still struggle with. I've played with some pretty solid players who just have no idea what they're doing when it comes to vision, or players who have great mechanics but a poor grasp of macro and don't know when the rotate or where to be on the map. Every player has weaknesses but everyone has their strengths too. There are always going to be players better and worse than you and I find that somewhat comforting.
As for the replay/VoD thing, I'm not entirely sure what you'd hope to get out of me reviewing your gameplay. I'd be willing to watch one game if you'd find it helpful somehow. Just let me know what you're looking for (criticism, proof that you're not trash, or something else).