And here it ****ing is. In a flash, that one thought that I dread so ****ing much. that set of questions that sends me downward into a spiral of depression and angst that you all have come to know from me.
WHY CAN'T I BE GOOD ENOUGH?
which then leads to follow up questions like "why is all my work at getting better rewarded with failure, after failure, after ***********ing failure?"
For every game won I get 3 losses. for every lane I win I get a thrown match 20 minutes later. Every time I try to guide my team to a victory, some not job decided to TP top lane and defend a tower against the whole opposite team. I don't feel like I am losing games because they are being lost for me with the dumbass throws my teammates manage to come up with.
When can I be good enough?
WHY CAN'T I BE GOOD ENOUGH?
which then leads to follow up questions like "why is all my work at getting better rewarded with failure, after failure, after ***********ing failure?"
For every game won I get 3 losses. for every lane I win I get a thrown match 20 minutes later. Every time I try to guide my team to a victory, some not job decided to TP top lane and defend a tower against the whole opposite team. I don't feel like I am losing games because they are being lost for me with the dumbass throws my teammates manage to come up with.
When can I be good enough?
OTGBionicArm wrote:
Everyone has that moment. Just gotta kinda push through it.
I'm having that kind of life......
Start a game.
FB is given before you reach your second buff.
Another 3 kills follow by the time you kill the firs camp after taking your second buff.
First tower goes down at 8 mins.
Top lane that's been feeding the enemy like fook stops going toplane and now just feeds mid.
Means toplane loses towers.
At 20-something mins we've lost all second tier towers, are behind in kills, gold, etc.
The vote to surrender comes.
I say yes, the game ends, I say no, we carry on.
I said no.
And this is what happens:
Took down all 3 lanes. 2 of them single handed.
Got my team Baron. Twice.
Got down every tower, even nexus towers.
Had their nexus at 653HP.
Then my team threw.
One would rage for less.....
FB is given before you reach your second buff.
Another 3 kills follow by the time you kill the firs camp after taking your second buff.
First tower goes down at 8 mins.
Top lane that's been feeding the enemy like fook stops going toplane and now just feeds mid.
Means toplane loses towers.
At 20-something mins we've lost all second tier towers, are behind in kills, gold, etc.
The vote to surrender comes.
I say yes, the game ends, I say no, we carry on.
I said no.
And this is what happens:
Took down all 3 lanes. 2 of them single handed.
Got my team Baron. Twice.
Got down every tower, even nexus towers.
Had their nexus at 653HP.
Then my team threw.
One would rage for less.....
**** chemistry.
I AM NOT AFFECTED BY ELOHELL. NOOBS AND TROLLS NEVER RUIN MY RANKED GAMES.
I DON'T GET STUCK AND I NEVER GET ONLY 2LP FOR A WIN.
I AM UNRANKED.
also check out my Ryze guide
just won a grim-looking 4v5 in ranked, pretty happy
even happier because I discovered that I can apparently play Fizz (although who can't? =/)
even happier because I discovered that I can apparently play Fizz (although who can't? =/)
Thanks to FatelBlade, JEFFY40HANDS, Nyoike, TheNamelessBard, GrandmasterD, aviseras and koksei for the awesome signatures
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