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I hate trolls, everyone does. Not for what they do, what they end up influencing me in doing. It's been awhile since I came to this forum, at first it was for help but now ten levels ahead of where I was from last time now it's a trip in frustration other than noobness and slight depression. No, now I wan't to get on a discussion of trolls on a blog some may not read but none the less somewhere I can vent my frustration and my idiocy.
Hello, I'm EvilNinja145 and I am now a level 22 league player. I have my rune page somewhat complete, my masteries in check, characters I can now master successfully without feeding like crazy. But unfortunately no mattter how high you get there still lies the problem of internet trolls. Ah trolls, existing since the dawn of time even before the existence of the internet and have forever plagued this world with frustration. Let me share with you all a story to make you understand why I'm writing my point, sure some of it is my fault but the frustration was enough for me to regret my actions.
A normal five vs five game, we all say our positions, go there respectively, everything is fine. Then comes our jungler, whining for help as Darius for some early help as minions have already spawned. Being mid I don't want to give my position up, nor do the others who are already in combat. Because of the lack of response he ends up doing his own thing as everyone continues to be busy doing their jobs in the game. Only a little bit in does this troll finally come out from under his bridge. I get attacked by all five as I'm farming easy minions and decide to hold back my flash, my fault and should have held back until Fizz got into soloing his lane. Jax is up top soloing but clearly is getting out fed and can't hold his own without getting harrassed back and killed in the tower.
"Darius help top"
"You all didn't help me so good luck fighting without me"
"Are you a child?"
Jax is now dead again.
"Trolololololoolol"
We lose a tower and now it's a Four vs Five. Now I imagine you all know this but a good Fizz player is hard to beat. We trade off deaths but Im clearly being lifted, yet now I can't rely on my jungler to help me as he's off in Narnia(Cheating I know, still it wouldn't have hurt if he helped.) So while I'm fighting it out at level ten and our level four jungler is running around like an idiot both lanes are losing ground. Frustration is brewing, hatred spewing in the chat channel, yet I still fight it out like always. That's when I finally lose it. Ignorring the spam and mean words going on in the chat channel I continue to fight Fizz, yet he pushes a bit too hard and I have him. Snared and firring down on him at ease I am this close away to getting him when Akali comes around and kills me right then and there with Fizz and his nine health left self waltzes away and recalls.
"Lol noob"
"Dude you're feeding stop owning and let me handle things"
"Stay with bots dude"
I guess you could say it was my fault I pushed too hard, not to blame the others as they were already frustrated, to ignore everything and just go to bot where teemo was coming from to take over. But it was bot where Akali had come from, I guess I didn't need a MIA but at the time I was done with rational thought and was done caring. I was done being called names, relying on myself and having my deaths laughed at by everyone else. It was already a lost game(Not really, I've won worse but I already was done with it) so without another word, opened up my menu and left it without a second thought....Never have I broken the golden rule before. Sure you may feed as much as you want but you never abandon your team no matter how hopeless the situation is. Still even if after the clenched teeth and fists I felt a sudden urge of regret even if I wanted nothing to do with that game. And now I am here.
You all could say that on the end it was my fault, my one kill and three death stat list was a bit attrocious that early on and even how I said in an earlier blog that in the end all your mistakes are on YOU. But...that game just made me feel bad, ot made me feel bad to be called those things and slandered despite how well I normally do in league. I left that team to ot's own fate, because of one or two player who I didn't like. Even now I kind of see myself as the bad guy, but for those pf you who have found yourself in this situation before...what do you do?
Not to be a hyprocrite to give advice that I didn't follow but how do you fight againdt the plague of the internet? The truth is...as everyone knows, you don't. There is no trick, you dont respond and keep on playing without arguing. It's hard though, I myself have a short temper and in the end I couldn't stand it. Rather than argue I did something completely unforgivable, a sin in the league community. All of you who came across my blog...in the end all this is really is a rant. Frustrated by a plague that ravages everywhere of nasty people and those who find enjoyment from torment. What gives people the right to say whatever they want just because they are protected by distance, strangers, going up to someone you don't know and kicking them while they were down while wearing a mask in the process. Would those internet trolls ever think of doing something like that in reality, away from the safety of their homes?
Maybe they are just like me though, people of frustration and anger forcing other people down with them. There is little I can say though, at first my fight was to praise them as they hated me with false love and thank yous, but even then I still feel like dirt. I myself need to learn with a shut kouth to take in their harsh words and keep on playing. No matter what is said or how many times someone feeds just keep on playing ajd wait for the next game. I was no doubt reported for what I did, but maybe it was just a learning experiencing for me. To fight through what made me uncomfortable and keep improving myself through that. It actually sounds a lot like reality as well, to struggle across that bridge and not give that troll a single penny. Will I have the strength next time to over come such hardships, will all of you keep on playing and fight through to play another game whether you carry or feed? We all can't know what the future holds for us, but at least we all can keep in mind what we would do in a situation like this. A longer fuse wouldn't hurt though.
Hello, I'm EvilNinja145 and I am now a level 22 league player. I have my rune page somewhat complete, my masteries in check, characters I can now master successfully without feeding like crazy. But unfortunately no mattter how high you get there still lies the problem of internet trolls. Ah trolls, existing since the dawn of time even before the existence of the internet and have forever plagued this world with frustration. Let me share with you all a story to make you understand why I'm writing my point, sure some of it is my fault but the frustration was enough for me to regret my actions.
A normal five vs five game, we all say our positions, go there respectively, everything is fine. Then comes our jungler, whining for help as Darius for some early help as minions have already spawned. Being mid I don't want to give my position up, nor do the others who are already in combat. Because of the lack of response he ends up doing his own thing as everyone continues to be busy doing their jobs in the game. Only a little bit in does this troll finally come out from under his bridge. I get attacked by all five as I'm farming easy minions and decide to hold back my flash, my fault and should have held back until Fizz got into soloing his lane. Jax is up top soloing but clearly is getting out fed and can't hold his own without getting harrassed back and killed in the tower.
"Darius help top"
"You all didn't help me so good luck fighting without me"
"Are you a child?"
Jax is now dead again.
"Trolololololoolol"
We lose a tower and now it's a Four vs Five. Now I imagine you all know this but a good Fizz player is hard to beat. We trade off deaths but Im clearly being lifted, yet now I can't rely on my jungler to help me as he's off in Narnia(Cheating I know, still it wouldn't have hurt if he helped.) So while I'm fighting it out at level ten and our level four jungler is running around like an idiot both lanes are losing ground. Frustration is brewing, hatred spewing in the chat channel, yet I still fight it out like always. That's when I finally lose it. Ignorring the spam and mean words going on in the chat channel I continue to fight Fizz, yet he pushes a bit too hard and I have him. Snared and firring down on him at ease I am this close away to getting him when Akali comes around and kills me right then and there with Fizz and his nine health left self waltzes away and recalls.
"Lol noob"
"Dude you're feeding stop owning and let me handle things"
"Stay with bots dude"
I guess you could say it was my fault I pushed too hard, not to blame the others as they were already frustrated, to ignore everything and just go to bot where teemo was coming from to take over. But it was bot where Akali had come from, I guess I didn't need a MIA but at the time I was done with rational thought and was done caring. I was done being called names, relying on myself and having my deaths laughed at by everyone else. It was already a lost game(Not really, I've won worse but I already was done with it) so without another word, opened up my menu and left it without a second thought....Never have I broken the golden rule before. Sure you may feed as much as you want but you never abandon your team no matter how hopeless the situation is. Still even if after the clenched teeth and fists I felt a sudden urge of regret even if I wanted nothing to do with that game. And now I am here.
You all could say that on the end it was my fault, my one kill and three death stat list was a bit attrocious that early on and even how I said in an earlier blog that in the end all your mistakes are on YOU. But...that game just made me feel bad, ot made me feel bad to be called those things and slandered despite how well I normally do in league. I left that team to ot's own fate, because of one or two player who I didn't like. Even now I kind of see myself as the bad guy, but for those pf you who have found yourself in this situation before...what do you do?
Not to be a hyprocrite to give advice that I didn't follow but how do you fight againdt the plague of the internet? The truth is...as everyone knows, you don't. There is no trick, you dont respond and keep on playing without arguing. It's hard though, I myself have a short temper and in the end I couldn't stand it. Rather than argue I did something completely unforgivable, a sin in the league community. All of you who came across my blog...in the end all this is really is a rant. Frustrated by a plague that ravages everywhere of nasty people and those who find enjoyment from torment. What gives people the right to say whatever they want just because they are protected by distance, strangers, going up to someone you don't know and kicking them while they were down while wearing a mask in the process. Would those internet trolls ever think of doing something like that in reality, away from the safety of their homes?
Maybe they are just like me though, people of frustration and anger forcing other people down with them. There is little I can say though, at first my fight was to praise them as they hated me with false love and thank yous, but even then I still feel like dirt. I myself need to learn with a shut kouth to take in their harsh words and keep on playing. No matter what is said or how many times someone feeds just keep on playing ajd wait for the next game. I was no doubt reported for what I did, but maybe it was just a learning experiencing for me. To fight through what made me uncomfortable and keep improving myself through that. It actually sounds a lot like reality as well, to struggle across that bridge and not give that troll a single penny. Will I have the strength next time to over come such hardships, will all of you keep on playing and fight through to play another game whether you carry or feed? We all can't know what the future holds for us, but at least we all can keep in mind what we would do in a situation like this. A longer fuse wouldn't hurt though.
Me playing Blitzcrank and going 2 - 5: "Wait while I uninstall this game."
Me playing Ezreal and killstealing everything: "Well, look on the brights side, at least our carry's fed!"
I know you can't just be told to take up this kind of attitude and sometimes I have to fight my own frustrations to keep calm and be a general smart***, but it's something you should at least try, no matter how hard it might be.
"They" exist and have no mercy, "they" thrill and feed on despair, and to counter that, one must stay focus, be cool-headed and be hard as a rock.
Still, we all have bad days =/