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You see I am new to this forums even if I am some what familiar with the game. As my first blog I was planning on making more...introductory. To have a journey of me going form completely sucking to being an alright player to actually look back at competitive games without any sense of regret even if you gg the other team for a defeat. However even just now starting my League career I am experiencing what many of you have probably felt in the past.
And it's happening now.
I have that terrible disease known as Noob Syndrome. The problem is moving up the rank to more competitive players, and even worse as an unfamiliar character that I'm rather stuck with, with not enough time to adjust to the new competition without at least feeding by one death in each game(Unless my team has an insane carry or the other team is just plain stupid.) However that should never be the problem in my opinion. Whether or not your team is feeding insanely and your left fighting against unfair higher levels it only matters whether you can look back and truly know that there was nothing you could do to avoid that death. What pisses me off the most is those that shout that their team was completely awful, shouldn't they turn the terrible match into a training session of sharpening skills? See how many last hits you can get, how many near deaths you can manage, and admire that you didn't feed the entire match even if your team is off giving the enemy a buffet.
What my point is however is that in my opinion myself is all that matters when dealing with mistakes, teamwork however is another story. All I'm getting at though is that I just had one of those games, a game where even if you didn't do too awful your practically kicking yourself and swearing the entire time. It was a match where I was the worst on the team, making trivial mistakes, not feeding enough, and in the end being a level fourteen going up against eighteens(Which makes you a walking help yourself a walking gold and exp feast). It was that match that made me hesitate, finally stop and ask myself if my recent obsession with LoL really worth investing my time into. Fearful of that moment where the game becomes less fun and more of a chore to do. Whether or not I would truly be a noob forever and consistently get sweared at and called names by my over reacting teammates after a defeat.
What's worse however is I hate knowing my other teammates are carrying me, when they give me no reason to hate them and I end up looking like the jerk. Is all my spare time just wasted away on a game where I am hated and can't even grasp correctly? I know I won't be bad forever, all things take practice but as I said earlier it's just...one of those times. Where you have no reason to be sad over the fed game as you've had far worse. No reason just to stop playing because you had one poor game, not even bothering to look over your mistakes and try to improve on them. You think all of these thing, but in the end if you are truly devoted to the game you may wait a bit and then start up a new game just to see how things go for you. Of course not without feeling somewhat depressed over your poor performance.
In the end what I'm trying to say is I am a noob, I accept this fact and just now I was ready to shut off my computer and call it a night. But to all of you whether your level 1-30, you may say this rarely happens and I'm just ranting on about something frivolous but in the end if your really devoted to improving yourself you will go far. I'm a simple level twelve saying this to probably one viewer who decides to look upon my blog, but to that one viewer don't punch your computer in frustration, swear out your team even if they are being idiots(Which at times you have a right to say so). There is no coming to the point where you decide to leave the game, or worse, feed the other team on purpose.
I was this close to quitting on my team, this close to letting the carry handle it and thankfully having enough common sense not to be that person who does feed on purpose. So close of making a bad game into a disaster, it was expected that we would lose it but in the end I understand all the stupid mistakes that I have made. I may not forgive myself over them and am still a little hesitant of returning, but in the end I probably will. I will keep in mind the words I have decided to rant on here to keep some sense of sanity, hope that my mentor can soon cure this and that I may be that person who carries my team.
In the end though it's just that time we all have.
And it's happening now.
I have that terrible disease known as Noob Syndrome. The problem is moving up the rank to more competitive players, and even worse as an unfamiliar character that I'm rather stuck with, with not enough time to adjust to the new competition without at least feeding by one death in each game(Unless my team has an insane carry or the other team is just plain stupid.) However that should never be the problem in my opinion. Whether or not your team is feeding insanely and your left fighting against unfair higher levels it only matters whether you can look back and truly know that there was nothing you could do to avoid that death. What pisses me off the most is those that shout that their team was completely awful, shouldn't they turn the terrible match into a training session of sharpening skills? See how many last hits you can get, how many near deaths you can manage, and admire that you didn't feed the entire match even if your team is off giving the enemy a buffet.
What my point is however is that in my opinion myself is all that matters when dealing with mistakes, teamwork however is another story. All I'm getting at though is that I just had one of those games, a game where even if you didn't do too awful your practically kicking yourself and swearing the entire time. It was a match where I was the worst on the team, making trivial mistakes, not feeding enough, and in the end being a level fourteen going up against eighteens(Which makes you a walking help yourself a walking gold and exp feast). It was that match that made me hesitate, finally stop and ask myself if my recent obsession with LoL really worth investing my time into. Fearful of that moment where the game becomes less fun and more of a chore to do. Whether or not I would truly be a noob forever and consistently get sweared at and called names by my over reacting teammates after a defeat.
What's worse however is I hate knowing my other teammates are carrying me, when they give me no reason to hate them and I end up looking like the jerk. Is all my spare time just wasted away on a game where I am hated and can't even grasp correctly? I know I won't be bad forever, all things take practice but as I said earlier it's just...one of those times. Where you have no reason to be sad over the fed game as you've had far worse. No reason just to stop playing because you had one poor game, not even bothering to look over your mistakes and try to improve on them. You think all of these thing, but in the end if you are truly devoted to the game you may wait a bit and then start up a new game just to see how things go for you. Of course not without feeling somewhat depressed over your poor performance.
In the end what I'm trying to say is I am a noob, I accept this fact and just now I was ready to shut off my computer and call it a night. But to all of you whether your level 1-30, you may say this rarely happens and I'm just ranting on about something frivolous but in the end if your really devoted to improving yourself you will go far. I'm a simple level twelve saying this to probably one viewer who decides to look upon my blog, but to that one viewer don't punch your computer in frustration, swear out your team even if they are being idiots(Which at times you have a right to say so). There is no coming to the point where you decide to leave the game, or worse, feed the other team on purpose.
I was this close to quitting on my team, this close to letting the carry handle it and thankfully having enough common sense not to be that person who does feed on purpose. So close of making a bad game into a disaster, it was expected that we would lose it but in the end I understand all the stupid mistakes that I have made. I may not forgive myself over them and am still a little hesitant of returning, but in the end I probably will. I will keep in mind the words I have decided to rant on here to keep some sense of sanity, hope that my mentor can soon cure this and that I may be that person who carries my team.
In the end though it's just that time we all have.
I myself hate the feeling when you know you're doing something wrong and you're affecting other people.
Just keep in mind that it's just a game. Try to find enjoyment in the games you play. Don't stress yourself too much thinking about what you did wrong. Of course you should give yourself a self-evaluation and look at what you need to work on, but don't make yourself miserable thinking too much about it.
With this kind of a personality you definitely aren't the worst out there in the community.
"The people who recognize their faults are the people who will advance."
You're only level 12 so don't sweat it! The leveling up process is supposed to be a big learning curve where you start grasping the complexities of the game. Yes this game is a continuous process, but imo it is fun to keep on getting better and better. It is indeed a big time sink, but if you start feeling like it's a chore just take a break and play a different game that you enjoy. You should always try to have fun where you can!
I agree you should never flame your team. For one thing it only makes them keep performing worse, because they get pissed off; lowering your chance of winning. For another it's just not worth wasting your effort. I usually try to give tips where I can if they seem receptive.
Welcome to mobafire! I see you're fairly new here, but I'm glad you're starting off your post with a blog that tells us a lot about you.
Be sure to check out the New Player Help forum, and the Constructive Criticism forum to sign up for games to play with your fellow mobafire members. There will be an inhouse for people <500 wins on Saturday and you might fight right in! Hopefully you can get some tips there. :)