It was always in the back of my mind that I needed to get higher elo to be taken seriously.

I always felt that intelligent people would be able to pick apart anything I said with method and scrutiny. If it was worth saying then why would it matter my elo.

I felt that getting diamond was just a way to appease the unintelligent (but not necessarily undesirable) into appraising the worth of my words.

I'm diamond 5. I figured people would take me more seriously after plat so plat was my goal. Now I think to myself diamond 5 isn't high enough. Why not diamond 1? Even in the LCS though I heard this phrase yesterday.

"The difference between an LCS player and another Diamond 1"

So then is challenger all that matters?
And if not challenger then being an LCS player?

And if not being an LCS player then being the best LCS player?
And if not being the best LCS player then being a human being of some historic significance?

In truth I was the unintelligent one.
I will never be satisfied with anything.

I used to think that I didn't have what it took to be diamond 1 but I see so much exploitable tactics from players of the elo.

I knew diamond was free and now I'm starting to see that Diamond 1 just might be free.

And so who knows where I will be next
I know I'm not going to be doing anything smart though I'll say that.