
This is how you win by feeding.
I died a couple times early on and thought, "**** it. I'm just not going to score any kills. I'm just gonna dive into these team fights, die gloriously, and hope I cause enough ruckus that my mates can get some kills. I'm not even gonna try to live."
Early in, after my third death or so, the enemy team deeply inhaled the sweet, tangy perfume of a noob feeder. You've seen this before. Whenever someone gets that smell in their nose, they always focus hoping for an easy kill. They all compete for the free gold. It's like watching 5 frat guys elbowing past each other to get to the hot girl who got way too drunk and just asked for a ride home.
When you get tagged as a feeder, you snowball in a bad bad way. You die a lot, you can't catch up, and your team hates you. This is exactly what happened.
So I kamikaze dove into team fights. I popped my ult, they ignited me. They unleashed their nukes and CC on me as I ran straight after their squishies…